A Renewed Goal

After dealing with a less-than-optimal situation yesterday, I’ve realized that it’s time to renew a goal and finish moving the Concatenation Records site to Bandcamp.

It’s a goal I’ve worked on achieving since shutting down the label a couple years ago, but I get sidetracked doing other things on my way to finishing that project. After removing concerns about how I spend my off hours in yesterday’s blog post, I’m able to solely focus on this goal and make it come to fruition without any other distractions getting in the way.

I’ve come to find goals arbitrary as of late, but at least this one makes sense in my pursuit of simplicity, as I can relegate concerns about the label even further to the periphery of my attention once I complete this goal.

It’s still going to take some time, as 43 collections still need to be uploaded, though half of those are minor releases of my own work. With those releases, I’m tempted to remaster the best tracks and combine them for a new release.

Doing so would give me a new goal to complete once I finish this one, though I hope I don’t end up as goal-oriented as I used to be. Then again, that might not be the worst thing in the world in the process of seeking simplicity.

Non-Motivators

Now that I’ve become a full-time employee again, I’ve wondered what motivates me to continue my other pursuits in my free time. That question hasn’t yielded results, so I flipped the question and thought about what does not motivate me, in order to narrow down my field of time pursuits. That has yielded better results.

I’ll start with the fact that I’m not motivated by money. It has its purposes, but I don’t see the need to go above and beyond to earn a lot more than I need. I used to see the need when I worked at jobs that I didn’t especially enjoy (in order to invest and save for earlier retirement), but now that I’m doing something that’s well-tuned to who I am, I’m in no rush to stop. I’m still saving for a long-term goal, but as mentioned, I’m in no hurry to get there.

In that vein, I’m also not motivated by keeping up with what everyone else is doing. I don’t have a smart phone, I’m barely ever on social media networks, and pop culture and I parted ways many years ago. When I do glance back at what’s going on, I can tell that I’m totally out-of-tune with it.

As I mentioned in an earlier post, I’m also not motivated by relationships. I’m a solitary man by nature, I don’t play favorites with people, and it’s really hard to create a good relationship when you don’t commit quite a bit of time to spend with a person. I do spend more time with some than others, but that’s when we’re engaged in pursuing a joint interest. I know joint interests can be pursued in a relationship, but it’s sharing the rest of the minutiae of life that seems unpleasant. Plus, the whole “dividing by zero” thing from the earlier post.

Without listing any more non-motivators, I think the whole idea can be narrowed down to the fact that if I stick with brewing full-time, I can do whatever I please in my free time (within reason) and that will be enough.